Entry 1: Start of something new.

Starting your life over is never an easy thing, no one said it would be easy to adjust to completely different way of life.
Especially when you have to start over alone.
I'm currently studying Biomedical Science in Edinburgh, look how far i've come. I still remember writing blog posts after my little episodes of self hate and mental breakdowns because i thought i wont make it.
I am here today, i am here and it's not easy. But i know i will get through it.
Even if that means leaving people behind, even if that means leaving my life behind.
All of the memories are held dearly close to my heart, all those fantastic people i've met along the way will always mean the world to me.
Well, life moves on.
I'll meet even more people, make memories i didn't dream about before because everything is just ahead of me.
Uni is just the beginning.
Moving to a new country, being independent.
Geez, living on my own. I always awaited the moment, yet i never had the courage to actually work towards it. It's funny what life throws at you.
You just gotta keep on going, keep on swimming child.
This Friday, it's going to be 2 weeks that i've been living on my own.
This city is amazing, the architecture is beautiful and the history of this place is literally fascinating.
The landscapes..oh the nature.. the hills..i've always dreamt about living in a place like this.
Truth be told; there's quite no place like London.
That will always be my home, that will never change. It's where i grew as a person and you can never quite forget places that shaped you as a person.

Goodbye for now, or shall i say.. Peace out.

Currently in Poland on holiday, I'm thinking.. I should totally do like a new chapter on the blog once I start uni in September.
You know, write about the experience.
I think that will be fun.

"You're always stressed out about everything, I don't get you." -Pawel

It was long overdue that i download the Lilo & Stitch soundtrack, i finally remembered to do it.
I do not regret anything.

It just gives me life :D i can't really explain it, i just love everything about it.

Look at me doing coursework so early into my half-term, need to type up the last question for chemistry and i'm done for today.

Peace out.

p.s: my parents signed me up for gym, im so excited for tomorrow morning! i'm going with my younger brother, he's going to be my gym buddy. My parents can thank me later for getting him out of bed before 8am.

27/05/1998

So i just turned 18.
It's funny because i remember writing a post about being 16 or so and back then i thought i figured everything out.
Well i was wrong.
I have changed, i have developed as a person and i have pretty much very little actually figured out.
I don't mind to be honest.
The future scares me slightly less these days, like i told myself : "whatever will be, will be."
I am looked after, i have people to trust and lean on when in need, I'm not alone.
Life will bw fine, i will eventually see where i am going.


My mum woke me up today just before 10am and started talking about how i was born and how i was as a baby and even though i heard the stories a million times before, this time it was different. She mentioned details she hasn't told me before.
Like the fact i had to be taken out 2 weeks before the due date as her blood pressure was really high or she told me about the time they took me home from hospital and in the morning they thought i was dead as i didn't cry when i woke up. (i rarely cried as a baby which was a great contrast to my older brother).

Dunno that was random.
I am pregnant with my birthday cake, i has so many sweet things to eat it's sickening.

Peace out.

I'm guessing it's been long enough, I'm sorry. I tried to update a few times but each time I actually wrote something down my finger hoovered over the backspace button and soon enough the post was blank.

I thought that would be the case with this but its not.
I forgot how much blogging means to me. My audience is not large, to tell you the truth it was never meant to be in the first place.
Yet seeing other people read my posts (or shall I say life fails) makes me feel happy, I have let you guys down.

I just wish everything was over and I could get some peace. I can't wait for summer holidays, no more stress.

I have missed updating you on little funny things that happen to me during the day, I promise to update you. I promise to write at least twice a week (at least during this final stage of college) obviously during the summer holidays im gonna have more time which means more time for going out and more time for writing about it.

As for now I just need to destress a bit, it's bloody hard when all you wanna do is cry but I'll try my best.

Peace out.

Throughout this half term I spent more than enough time hanging out with my younger brother.
I accepted the fact he's as annoying as ever, yet I think he's one of the few people I can do weird crap infront of and not be judged.
Let's just say that I'm never bored around him.

As he's growing up I can really see myself in the way he acts and thinks, I'm really glad he's reached a point where he tries to be a better person and just overall matures.

Peace out.