Sometimes i think about myself..

It's sort of this thing where i don't really know who i am.

A couple of posts back i wasn't happy with who i was, i thought i changed and didn't seem like myself for a while. I literally stopped behaving like myself.

That has fortunately changed but when do i know that i am myself again?

After all, life is about constantly discovering yourself and what you are capable of.

So like right now I'm at the beginning of this long journey, and even though i went through stuff earlier on that really shaped up the person i am today; this isn't even my final form xD

My views change, opinions change and my perspective changes.

My thinking changes.

The further i go, the easier it is to cope with certain stuff as i gain experience.

I can tell right from wrong.

All i can do for now is accept who i am right this moment and strive to be a better person.

Peace out.

So my parents went to Scotland leaving me and my brothers at home by ourselves.

I feel as if experiences like this bring us together, like we have to depend on each other for the weekend and i think that's a nice change.
Having no parents around the house means i can sing twenty one pilots songs out loud, which is pretty darn cool if you ask me.

I also found myself shouting 'Lipid membrane' to Pawel, yup gotta let that frustration out.

I'm feeling better, although as soon as i woke up i wanted to literally disappear.
I'm slowly trying to work through things right now, like i just need to sort myself out.

Peace out.
P.S: have you noticed that i haven't been putting titles on my posts recently? like what's up with that?

Dirty hands
Muddy shoes
Twigs in hair
Cold air fills my lungs
Good company
'Borrowed' boats
Thin ice on the pond
Losing track
Finding the way..

All I want to do is sleep but lately even sleep isn't enough for me.

If today was so nice why am I feeling this way?

Half terms are always really uncomfortable for me.
Sure, you have education-free days where you don't have to get up at ridiculously early hours to attend classes that are not necessarily enjoyable.
But I just can't help feeling really isolated, or wanting to be isolated for that matter.
At one point I just give up and stop caring about anything, I think today was the day.
I actually hate my thoughts sometimes, and it's not like I can stop them when I want to. You have to distract yourself and when they come back you have to push them away some more.
Until eventually hopefully you forget about it when you're busy.
I made plans for tomorrow and Friday as that is the only cure for this mysterious condition I am in.
 Spending time with friends always improves my mood.

Peace out.

I love the little things, details make me happy.
I was making myself tea today, for some reason I chose a tall clear glass.
When stirring the tea I noticed a dancing tornado inside the glass, I pressed my nose onto the glass for a better look and I stirred some more fascinated.
Once the honey dissolved and the tornado calmed down I thought about all the little things people miss, all the thrilling things that people take for granted.

Peace out.

I was a shooting star today.
I was walking home from college and i was just randomly staring at the dark sky.
No clouds, just clear night sky.
At first I noticed Orion's Belt, I practically didn't look where i am walking.
I got to the white bridge and spent a good 5 minutes appreciating the view, I love this place at night.

I continued to walk, during cold weather i am sometimes too cold to take out my headphones so i just walk in silence.
I usually think about what happened throughout the day, or day dream; that depends on my mood.

My thoughts focused on a particular moment during the day... let's

I happened to look up at the sky at the exact moment a star fell from the sky, it was like a short ray of light which then disappeared into nothingness.
I don't think you understand how happy that made me, i could experience such an unexpected beauty for the first time in my life.

Peace out.