So i don't think i told you guys but my parents are considering moving to Scotland.
They've been talking about it for a consecutive 4 days now. (yes, i count stuff like this)
Today my dad & I were downstairs in the living room, me sitting opposite him drinking tea.
He takes a sip of coffee and turns to me saying : "You know, it looks like we're leaning more towards the leaving London option". I nodded and didn't really give an audible response.

I know i shouldn't think about it all just yet, i have one more school year left here.
It's really hard not to think about the future if that's all they talk about lately.

It's not like i don't want to move, i always wanted to live in a place like that.
But i don't want to leave all of this behind, it's like leaving my life behind to be honest.

Moving house means a new beginning; new friends, new surroundings, new everything.

I need to get back to coursework, just wanted to get these thoughts down somewhere quickly.
Peace out.

I think things are generally looking much better lately, college is not going that bad.
I'm just a little bit worried about next year... other than that everything is good.

I came to a realisation that I think i need to trust myself a bit more.
I need to learn to depend on myself and stop depending on others so much.
I feel as if my happiness relies on people other than me, and that shouldn't be the case.

I'm quite happy with the person i am at the moment, a few changes won't hurt though.

Peace out.

Im slightly upset by the fact that i missed a twenty one pilots show it was in london and the tickets were like under 30 pounds, what is really sad is the fact that the next time they come to Great Britain is at the end of august for the Reading/Leeds festival.. whyyyyy the tickets are just mad expensive too..

I need to do my work now.. Physics is a pain lately, i just don't know what to do to be honest. I really try to like and understand it, but it's just not something i am good at.
The teacher is a nice person, like im not saying she's not but she picks on me soo much and honestly i haven't heard a good word flow out of her mouth when talking about my work or me for that matter. It's always something negative, it's kinda getting to me when i know it shouldn't. It's just you put all this work and effort in and she just crunches it up in front of your eyes and tells you that you are dissapointing her... okie that's it. My chest feels slightly lighter now.

Peace out dudes.

What would I do without music?

Current fave: 'Beneath the skin' album by Of Monsters and Men

It just makes me feel so many things, does that make sense?

I'm kinda feeling down and that's the only thing keeping me going at the moment.

Goodnight.

I just realised that i haven't posted a rant in ages..
It's not like i'm trying to say that my opinions are in the right and everyone who disagrees is in the wrong though. Let's just say for all those who disagree, this can be an approach from a different perspective.

I hate it when people are condescending towards others,  thinking that you're better than a person is bad enough but assuming they would not understand or would not know about something based on your prejudiced beliefs is actually the worst.

People who look down at others, or people who put themselves first in every situation actually disgust me.

You're here for not a long time, average of about 81.5 years in the UK.
(that would mean that i have approximately a quarter of my life already behind me, yes i took a minute to calculate that as i am extra)
So just take that time and try to make other people smile, treat them with respect make their day pleasant.
Even showing interest in their life could mean a lot, a simple "How are you?".
I don't think treating people kindly is a lot to ask, whereas it makes a big impact.

I am not saying i am perfect, i have moments where i am rude or show disrespect but there is a difference between working on improving yourself and not wanting to change your behaviour.

Peace out,

Today wasn't even bad, in fact I really liked today.
We had pizza and some family time, which is rare nowadays as everyone is usually busy.
I called Grandma, she's feeling fine so at least that's going okay.

I'm currently in bed, my chest feels heavy and just tight for some reason. My eyes are probably bloodshot and I'm just here in the dark wishing I wasn't here.
Wishing I was nowhere..
Peace out.

Insignificant facts about my life incoming:
Half term is over and looking back at it all it went really fast.
I noticed that every time I went outside of my house I would trip up at one point or another, I wish I was joking but I'm dead serious.
Even when the half term is over, today I was walking home and my feet didn't disappoint me.. I tripped on a completely flat surface.
It's like I'm prone to accidents or something, it's gotten to the point where i recover really quickly and don't even give it much thought until someone points out that I tripped up.

Peace out.