Independence.

Turning 16 meant that i was expected to be more responsible for my actions and also become more independent, find a job or just take care of my own business.
It meant arranging my own GP check ups and appointments.
I try not to depend on people, do things myself because then i feel better about the outcome. But i know for a fact i am not ready for being an adult and facing consequences on my own. I am scared of the future, but i am also very excited for what the future holds.
At the same time i want to stay in this place forever but also can't wait to move on. I am torn apart between what i want and what i need.

I have to admit, going College was a big step for me as I am generally a very anxious person. And i do not settle in well with a new environment. But i did it, i even got into the same form class as my best friend Trevor. Things were going fine, i didn't have the same lessons as Trevor but we made it work. We met up every break and ate lunch together. But i have not really managed to make a lot of new friends, most were just merely classmates i had to spend 2 hours in a classroom with. I did of course befriend a few.
But with so many people from my high school in college with me it didn't feel like a new chapter in my life.
All until i got transfered into a new campus.
I remember the day i found out me and Trevor sat outside a chemistry class just contemplating the rest of our college career.
I cried myself to sleep that night, knowing that after that weekend ends I will be stomping on a completely new territory.
On the following Monday, i met up with Trevor in the morning and Katy promised me to show me around the campus before my lesson. Of course he was late and i had to stop myself from strangling him. On the bus we ran into Ohini, a girl from my old english and science class. She was kind enough to show me to my class as i walked into a class like a lost puppy, with 23 teenage faces staring at me. Luckily, my new form tutor was my Biology teacher from the previous campus so it wasn't that bad. I quietly sat down.
The first day was awful but i managed to make 2 new friends during lunch time. I got the bus with them home.
Well let me tell you what, about 4 months later I am settling in good in the class. They seem to like me and I am not complaining either. I am a part of a friends group with 6 members (including me) and i still see Trevor on a regular basis.
Now I am not only much better at making friends, I am also more independent day by day. (Excluding going to any sort of doctor by myself)

So remember, there's always hope.
I wish you luck!

Crazy selfie from college (me on the right)